Self Portrait
a requiem on repeat:
her exceptional river puddle
no clear career
but the word wand
I bet we lose
lay concrete inside me
let me be the next Decatur street
an office of orifices the so-bots gleam glorious
roasted all the porpoises
punished the pages contagious
my body ages nobody my editor
I speak spokes they axle the exceptional wheel
boethius eat your farts out
sterling shivers like dishes dirty yet rinsed
left
to chill in the sink
and I baby left in bath
momma’s never coming back
the guillotine to the giraffe
expanded my mind
and retract innovated last
persistently reticent vincent
administers cinnamon ton tongues
(learned in nola)
gotta spice the devil out the nostrils
memory’s nest
when I collapse
I’ll be best crash courage
landed in the hudson
climb down the missippi
classic don’t give a fuck
trills funeral home time
I’ll type to the death
reckless hearse swerves
Blessed be the first absence: sun
happy are those neglected from
her mother for theirs is the absence of sun
I do not ask the wounded person how he feels… I myself
become the wounded person
consider the stars gathering loss
your crisis
absence arises